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Another Fucking Beautiful Day: 1 Aug 98 Mark Pritchard When my father found out that the Lutheran church
I attend counts among its members a large percentage of gays -- even
before he had a clue that I might not be straight -- he asked why I didn't
see anything contradictory about such a moral place allowing perverts to
enter. I said something about how I thought the church was supposed to be
open to everybody. "Yeah," he said, "but why do you have
to be among them?" My father's concept of "being among them" captures a theme
of middle class life, which is that if you have enough money you can insulate
yourself from reality. When I was on my way to visit my parents in suburban
Houston once, I passed a walled-in condominium complex on the freeway. It
had a 15-foot concrete-block wall around it, and there were guards at the
one entry gate. The development advertised itself with a huge sign that
read: WHAT IS AN ENCLAVE? LIVE HERE AND SEE! My mother used the same word
the next day to describe her own condo development: "It's so quiet
here," she said, "like an enclave." My parents' statements illustrate an attitude held, I think, by a lot
of people in our society: they want to seal themselves off, not just from
danger and misery, but from difference. Most straight people have little
active animosity toward queers or the homeless or other marginalized people;
they just don't want to deal with us. As Mrs. B.P.S. Campbell, a Victorian
actress, said, "I don't care what those people do, as long as they
don't do it in the street and frighten
the horses." People in the rest of the country think San Francisco is some kind of
weird Disneyland of flaming faggots, long-haired hippie dope smokers, pinko
war protesters, and bleeding-heart liberals who "coddle" welfare
cheats and the homeless. Not to mention the zombie-like cultists who, as
my mother raved when I told her in 1978 that I was moving to San Francisco,
would "reach down from the Golden Gate Bridge and snatch you up!" And in a way, they're right. San Francisco is full of flaming faggots,
etc. (although I doubt the homeless or anybody on welfare feel coddled).
The city also contains every variety of yuppie, blue-collar worker, fundamentalist
Christian, real estate speculator, strip mall developer and big-haired secretary
that you could find in Bozeman, Muncie or Fort Lauderdale. The difference is that we all coexist in the same city, riding public
transportation, standing in line for unemployment, eating ice cream in the
middle of the winter, and renting videos. Yes, there are neighborhoods where
there are more queers and fewer straights, or more poor and fewer rich,
but it's a small city, and people don't spend as much time in their cars
as people do in the rest of the country. We share the sidewalks and streetcars.
We can't ignore each other. The concept of "coming out" also counters the isolationist
impulse. It means that you tell somebody in your life -- your boss or family
member or co-worker or neighbor -- that you are proud to be queer. You don't
have to move to San Francisco to do it, you don't have to parade in the
streets or block the bridges, you don't have to get a fabulous haircut.
You do it on a very personal, one-to-one level. And ideally many people
will do it. Imagine the effect on your typical straight office worker if
three of his co-workers came up to him on Oct. 11 (National
Coming Out Day) and told him they were queer. And then he goes to lunch
and the counter worker at the deli is wearing a pride button too. That kind of evangelism is very powerful. You can ignore or zap a bunch
of protesters on the TV news, if they even get on the news, but it's pretty
hard to ignore someone coming up to you and telling you, "I'm bisexual."
There's almost nothing to say to that, unless you are an incredibly rude
person, except "Well, that's nice." And you share an awkward moment.
This is the essence of peaceful revolution. Every time I leave my own comfortable enclave and venture into the heartland,
I am confronted with difference -- people who are different from me, cities
which are different from mine. I could make value judgments and say that
San Francisco is a beautiful city, not an ugly suburb, and the people here
dress in natural fibers, not polyester. But I think these judgments are
really about me having trouble accepting that middle America, where I lived
as a kid, is part of me. Just as straight people have trouble accepting
that San Francisco and queers and women and people of color are part of
America. Both groups, the straights and the marginalized, have something in common
-- the conviction that they are right. I believe that my abortion rights
stance is the only correct position. My fundamentalist brother believes
that his "pro-life" stance is the only correct one. Each of us
distrusts and fears the other. If it sounds like I'm now going to make some kind of plea for people
to talk to and understand one another, I'm not. I don't have anything to
say to my brother or the Pope or the fundamentalists, and I don't think
they want to "understand" me. I think they want to eliminate me
and everybody else who doesn't buy into their narrow little schemes, and
make the whole world like Pakistan
or Saudi Arabia.
This doesn't make me want to talk to them; it makes me enraged. We have
to remember that rage, and angry acts, are not just reactions to our situation.
They are legitimate alternatives to trying to reason. For another thing, I don't think talking or trying to educate conservatives
will work. When I was a kid, I tried talking to the people who were picking
on me, but that didn't work; they just laughed and threw my hat in the storm
drain. Next I tried running. That more or less got me to San Francisco,
and San Francisco is pretty safe. You can find the community of your choice
performance artists, yuppie investors, drag queens, even fundamentalist
Christians -- and get the support you need to live as you wish. But unlike that condo complex, there isn't a wall around my city. When
I was involved with Queer Nation, the two actions I put the most energy
into involved invasions of San Francisco by outsiders. In October 1990,
some fundamentalists
staged a "prayer
army invasion" designed to "cast out the spirits of evil and
perversion" that supposedly dominate San Francisco. In the other case,
a Hollywood film company came to the city in the spring of 1991 to film
the homophobic movie "Basic Instinct,"
an attack on lesbian and bisexual women. In both cases, we staged angry
demonstrations that amounted (in practical terms) to minor disruptions of
the religious or cinematic productions, but which garnered national publicity
for queer rage. In both cases, the opposing companies turned our efforts against us.
Televangelists
used tape of the demos to scare their viewers into contributing more money
to fight queers, and the film company said we
were trying to take away their First Amendment rights. When the film
was released, it was a box office success due in part to the extra publicity.
The mainstream media also misinterpreted the actions, picking up on the
film company's press release that our protests amounted to "censorship."
And we didn't really stop the filming of "Basic Instinct." But subsequent news reports have said that because
our disruptive demonstrations cost the producers hundreds of thousands
of dollars in delays and legal fees, movie producers are now much more careful
about scripts with gay stereotypes. They don't give a shit about our precious
concerns about correct representations of lesbians and bisexuals in film,
or about Constitutional principles, but they care a lot about money. So
we spoke to them in their language. An army of lawyers, uniformed and plainclothes security guards, city
police and hostile media couldn't stop us from making our point despite
the huge difference in resources. The financial impact on the film company,
and the indirect impact on Hollywood as a whole, greatly exceeded the tiny
amounts of money we spent, because we had a secret weapon: we were right,
and we were angry. Fear and rage drives the fundamentalist right. I don't think we're so
morally superior that we can't make use of those motivations as well. Because
angry reactions get attention and respect. Like pornography, the politics
of rage may not be neat and clean -- but it's honest. Sex and rage liberate. (This column is an adaptation of one I wrote for Frighten the
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